If you think I’ve forgiven you, you’re highly mistaken

Thank you.

For successfully ruining my entire life. It’s been a long time now, but I’m still reeling from the consequences of listening to you, more so now, if it’s possible. And it’s not like you’ve realized your folly and stopped or slowed down. You continue wanting to rule my life and ruin it even more. Yes, you’ve apologized once when you thought your mistake was paining me but what pains me even more is that you can’t still see which the bigger mistake was. The one you’ve always apologized for or the one where you still think and maintain the decision was taken in MY best interests.

I don’t think I ever really wanted to do all those things I’ve done. And that was My biggest mistake! To just go along with what you said thinking it was in my best interests. BULL….! I’m a gullible person and you’ve taken ample advantage of that fact, manipulating me according to your needs and desires. Unlike most others, you’ve not tried to live your dreams and aspirations through me, that much I know and accept, but please, let’s stop this façade of acting in my best interests. Has it ever been in my best interest, or its been in “our” best interest, which very conveniently hides the fact that “our” comprises of YOU more than ME.

Not a day goes by when I don’t regret the decisions “I take” on your “advice”, but you see, I’m weak, cowardly and you know that.

So, I guess nothing will change. I will still take “my own” decisions, but be reminded that each one is basically “your” decision, not mine.

I might be equally responsible for my condition and ruin, for not being strong, and I will regret following your path without maybe doing anything to forge my own, but if you think I’ve forgotten or forgiven you, or that i ever will, you’re highly mistaken!