Racism or Honest Mistake, again and again and again??

Watching another less than satisfactory performance from India as they went down to England in the 3rd one day at edgbaston, i'm again boggled by the question as to why do we indians feel afraid of the new ball and don't back our batting strength?? We've faced the wrath of bowling first many a times, from the semi-final, 1996 world cup ( made famous by azhar's supposed matchfixing, and vinod kambli's tears ) , the world cup finals in 2003 ( zaheer's famous glare at adam gilchrist and the carnage thereafter) and the 1st match in the ongoing series.
But, there's another very important question hanging in the air, which, although can't be blamed for today's entire catastrophe but still needs to be raised up. The umpiring standards in the current series, right throughout the test series and the one day matches now, have been, at best, poor. But the important, more subtle point is that most of these errors, alomst all if i'm not wrong, have gone against the indians.

Dravid at lords, Sachin and Ganguly at trent-bridge, Ganguly again at the oval, and sachin given out on 99 in the second one day match.

But, looking back at today's match, given that India lot by 42 runs, the one decision that'll really be hurting the Indians will be the sre shot appeal against collingwood turned down.
I may be naive but it seems that all the "wrong" decisions have been given against batsmen who are not of the fair skin. Does racism exist in cricket, and are umpires really affected by the fact that a dark/brown skinned man is standing at the other end? Hard to say, but the evidence does seem incriminating!!
Call me a sentimental, blundering fool, but sachin's track record of BAD dismissals, in the 99-00 series down under, right till the match the other day, forced me think about this issue.
To my best knowledge, i cant remember Ricky Ponting, now being considered as the person to break all of sachin's record, ever, and i mean EVER gettin OUt a poor decision, let alone walking when he knows he's out. That's the hallmark of true GREATs, and two ever match up to this standard, a BLACK by the name of BRIAN CHARLES LARA, and a BROWN SKINNED by the name of SACHIN RAMESH TENDULKAR.
So much for comparisons!!!!

CHANGE??? BETTER OR WORSE??

Without realizing, another day just passes me by. Can't really believe just 3 months back i was still in college amongst a group of awesome pals caring not a damn about anything. The world seems to have been turned upside down. Smita's gone for a three month training to one of the BEST cities of the world; chacha has grovelled, begged, kissed ass, slogged his own ass off and finally gotten into MICROSOFT; gunajn's in calcutta, deb in hyd/mumbai; the rest of the gang's still in bangalore, lost in their respective corporate maze, trying to maintain some sanity in life.
And yours truly is stuck in Delhi, getting up in the morning for gym, driving mom around, lazing in front of the TV, wearing a silver bracelet. A lot has changed!!!
Hang on!!! Has it?? if I look beneath the surface, things still seem the same. I still get to talk to smita regularly ( thanks to her gracious self and her RICH company ),todi's till partying more than what's good for his back, shshank's still afraid of swimming, we still pull chacha's leg and he's still definately getting his ass kicked in MS, naga shaina n ravi still called the same ol' gang for their bday treat, mansur n anji meet regurlay, n so do appy n pooj, n for that matter ravi n appy.
I'm still making the same mistakes in MOCK CAT, still not enough inspiration and dedication to slog away for CAT n GMAT, still finding countless ways to put off studying for that one extra hour, with the thought-- " ho jaayega yaar"..
Nothing has Changed!!
Hmmm..
Even as i pen down this, i'm confused myself.. Has something really changed or not? Surely, we've graduated from college and those days are never returning.. Is this ofr the better or worse, i guess time will only tell..
Right now, i wish everyday that time would somehow turn back by three months, when we were still in college and enjoying life..
I guess many of our group only would not agree with me, but then, you're not sitting at home doing nothing, and putting all your hopes on getting into an MBA college next year!!!